Hiccup(s)!

"For the revelation awaits an appointed time: it speaks of the end and will not prove false.  Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.'  Habakkuk 2:3

This is a verse someone shared with me when we were waiting for Nathaniel and I have never forgotten it.  It was shared with me on one of those difficult days when it felt like we were never going to get approved from the Philippines.  This feeling of desperation is not uncommon when it comes to adoption...

With each adoption we've had hiccups.  Without going into too much detail, when we started wayyyyy back in 2004, we were put on hold for 18 months.  We began the process again 18 months, TO THE DAY.  Things went relatively smoothly from that point on, other than waiting several months for our approval from the Philippines.  Once we were on that list my desperation and insecurities subsided.  Then a little over 1 year after being home with Nathaniel, we started yet another adoption process, assuming the Lord would bless us with another child from the Philippines.  Our file was put together very smoothly and we waited for our approval from the Philippines.  Hiccup.  The Philippines denied our application.  Once again feelings of desperation started to stir up.  What were we going to do?  The Lord eventually led us to Vietnam, and that process went very smoothly.  Now for the third process, it couldn't possibly go smoothly, right?

We didn't "assume" which country we were to go to.  We researched, waited and prayed and felt the Lord leading us to China.  So we have put our file together, it took awhile, but it finally got to Batshaw.  We met with the rep at Batshaw on Thursday to sign our contract.  We were shocked by what the rep told us.  On Jon's medical form there is a question to the affect, "Do you think his/her marriage is sound to apply for an adoption?"  Jon's moronic doctor answered this question with a 'NO'...Are you kidding me?  Of course it's kind of our (Jon's :-) ) fault as we never picked up on it before handing in our file.  This doctor, as most doctors, doesn't know a thing about our marriage.  Even if there was something to be concerned about, he wouldn't have a clue.  So now the social worker has to 'investigate' further.  HICCUP!  I was laughing on Thursday when we left Batshaw, but when the social worker phoned that evening I was almost in tears. 

Mom says that this is just the Lord's way of prolonging the process so that the child He has chosen will be good and ready for us, in His time.  I will hold on to that theory good and tight.  As I think about this hiccup over and over, the verse above keeps ringing in my head.  We must wait for it and it will certainly come and will not delay.  Whatever 'it' is, another adoption or something else, we will wait upon the Lord...

Lord,

We pray that You will lead us in the direction we are to go.  We pray that this hiccup is all apart of Your plan for our family.  We commit the process to You and that the social worker would receive the answers he needs from the doctor and that this can all get straightened out. We wait for Your answers.

Amen